It’s Okay

You would think after being on this earth for over six decades, I would have gained a little wisdom from the life lessons I have experienced. There is no point in going into details, because as we know, there is nothing new under the sun, and God knows the stupid things I’m going to do before I do them. In Romans 7:15, the Apostle Paul says, “I don’t really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don’t do it. Instead, I do what I hate.” (NLT)

Boy, that describes me to the letter. So often I’ll let a momentary feeling drive everything I do, often losing all reasoning in the process. I actually find myself bargaining with God, which is absolutely ridiculous. I have shared in previous blogs some things that I have continuously prayed for concerning my future. It’s that dreaded waiting time in between the prayers and God’s answers that trips me up every time. My impatience simply gets me in trouble, and I end up feeling very foolish.

That’s how I’m feeling today; a bit foolish, and a little ashamed. It isn’t the end of the world, and I know I have been forgiven for not trusting my Father as I should. He knows me only too well, and I also believe he understands how I feel. He knows what I’ve been through, what I have survived, and what I’ve accomplished.

He created me to be exactly who I am. He knows what motivates me as a grown woman, and yet he also knows the little girl who still cries out in the night because she woke from her nap and realized she was all alone. He ‘gets me’ better than anyone ever will, and today I am writing these thoughts as a reminder.

If you can relate to anything I’ve shared here, please know you are not alone in your frustration. We are human, and we make mistakes, often. We don’t always react to situations the way we should, and definitely say the wrong things from time to time. But in case you weren’t aware, you have a heavenly Father who loves you and knows you better than you know yourself. He created you, after all. He’s just a prayer away.

Blessings,

Lisa Jo